pity

I pity myself so much. I don't know how to be myself. I don't know how to be original. I don't know, I guess I'm a follower for life. Its like Alison has her ways with words and hilarious, minhthy has funny quotes and funny stories, crystal dances and does artsy stuff and mysterious, alyssa is the ditsy too nice one, what am I ? Like what am I in the Lil' G's? I feel that I don't have a quality that makes me special. I'm too afraid to talk to them about cause they'll just brush it off and say I'm uptight and just stressing out. Like Shirley & duy love Alison much more than me. And crystal, minhthy, alssa too. I'm just the black sheep. I try to be original, but it doesn't really have much to do with my character. I want to be me, I want to be Sarah. Something known for, I am just Sarah, plain and plain. Average, nothing special. I don't do sports, I'm not that funny, I'm not that pretty, I don't dress as nice them. I don't know who I am supposed to be. I seem similar to Alison, but she's the better version. I don't know , I really don't know.

All I just want to be, is my own person. I want to be Sarah Nguyen, the person with the character I am supposed to be. I need some help, and lending hand, someone to believe in me, someone to just reinvent.