Won't someone save me, someone be my savior. I don't want to be here. I want to be able to have my damned freedom, to do what I want. I want to go to Van Nghe practice, and not study my ass off all the time. I want to be to have a life, I want to be with my buddies at practice. I want to talk to Alison and have fun with the Lil' G's , everyone. It's gonna suck when I don't have anything to do on Sundays . Why can't I go to practice, while balancing my studies, I have a freaking 3.83 -4.0 GPA average ! Isn't that enough for my mom ? It's only 8th grade, I can freaking handle it. It's not like I'm in highschool. Doesn't she realize I'm always happy after coming back from Van Nghe ? It's the only place where I love being at, my friends and all . It's happy, and fun , and I can do something for God, and have fun . All I want is to have like everyone else. And my hair , I don't like it . I just want a haircut, so I look nice . But she thinks I'm doing it for guys .
I'm going to slip into depression again . Van Nghe changed me, I'm no longer sad, miserable, depressed . Hasn't anyone noticed ? I'm much happier . I'm soon going to hate life, I just want my friends at practice. I don't want to go to 8th grade, I just want to go to highschool already. I'm tired of doing the same things everyday . I love drama, I love exciting things. I want to go to private school with Alison , but I can't. I wish she could go to my school . Everything messed up , this year was my favorite. Everything and everyone was going alright . Now , it's a mess. I can't go to practice, school is just school . Boring . The only thing I ask of my mother, is to let me resume practice on a regular basis. It's making me miserable just that I can't go . It's my life, I don't care what you think .
I swear one day , I'm gonna rebel from you. I'm gonna do whatever the fuck I please. I'll get a tattoo down my , pierce my belly button , and have multiple piercings on my ears. See how you like me now. just wait . I won't ever talk to you . Then maybe you'll realize that you should of let me on a looser leash. You can't control my life forever , you can't expect me to live my sister's life. I don't wanna be like anyone else. I wanna be Sarah Nguyen. I am who I am .
I just wanna be happy, and live my happily ever after. I just want to live my life the way I want to . NO interferences , I want to keep in contact with all Van Nghe. I know this might seem weird coming from a 13 year old, but I like to plan things. This is how I, SARAH NGUYEN, will live my life the way I fucken want it .
I haven't posted in forever , but here it is now. I might rant again . See you .
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