A New Beginning.

Fragile is the heart, fragile is the mind, delicate & extravagant; the soul. I believe myself to be rebirthed. A new person, I am fresh I am new, I am quaint and eloquent. "she's fresh to death." Haha. I feel as I have changed, as of rather than I was drowning, underwater, drowning. So hard to breathe, I need air, I need life. I was drowning, the drama, the pressure, the depression, the loneliness, the weakness; being alone. I couldn't handle it anymore. I wanted to break free, first step, take the chance. I took the risky chance, it started with doubt and crying, even though I knew that'd be his reaction. I knew I was a slut for liking him. But I gathered up my courage and told him, that I liked him. Even with all the complications, that stressed us out; 4 days later, during which we were still talking, he told me he felt the same. It was a horrible risk , what about the backfire that would happen if he didn't say he did too? The embarrassment, everyone bothering me, "sarah, you're not good enough." , the awkwardness. In the end it worked out, my friends forgave for the stupid things I pulled. The world is at peace, I am at ease.

In the span of 2 weeks, I am rebirthed. "I have the oxygen, I breathe it in." I'm so happy, has anyone noticed? I actually feel loved, these 2 weeks have been life changing. Wintergirls, a book I was reading, gave me another view of self confidence. I feel better with myself, I don't tell myself that I'm ugly anymore. I tell myself," you're sarah , and that's how you're supposed to look, not like anyone else, but you." He makes me so happy, I feel like those teenagers in those movies and novels. Always on the phone, on the computer IMing, giggling, & all that jazz in person. I've always wanted to be like and feel like that, it's a wish come true.

My friends love me, Lil' G's, are so awesome, I love them. Long Beach , was soooo fun. Anh Tung doesn't hate us as much anymore ! He called us,"cheese." & that's a good thing. The bus trip was fun, so much bonding. The best pit stop ever. MINHTHY HA, ahah. I love her. I'm so happy I got closer to her, I feel like we got from hot to hotter in our relationship. NO HOMO. Today's the Thanksgiving VLYT dinner, I'm stoked. Haha, more time with us 5. My grades are going up, I'm loved, my parents are finally getting me a new laptop w/WC since the other broke, my hair is curled - i haven't curled my hair since 2nd grade, 2nd time - , and I feel pretty, my friends are awesome, there's no drama, I have someone who loves me more than a bestfriend, his parents know about me, haha. I'm not depressed, and I'm not lonely, & I'm not miserable inside . I believe my life has taken a turn for the better.

Everything Is Alright, everything is wonderful. I can grasp the intangible love. I can see the love. I just need to take it as mine, and I'm rising towards the surface, floating slowly to meet air, I force the water out of my lungs, the water splashes as I take inhale the oxygen. I can breathe. I'm no longer drowning.