The Unevitable

It feels good, to know that someone cares. That some people care. I don't feel so alone anymore. I cried reading everyone's comments from the post before this. I cried in happiness, " Someone cares." Two days ago something terrible happened to me, I won't say it out loud, but I'm scared. My life is controlled, no freedom , no hope. What's worse, is that I'm failing science; it's so hard. I don't understand it. And at the age of 13, I feel lonely without a significant other. I don't mean to be jealous but all my friends have one. I am alone. No one to hold, no one to hug, you know?
I feel it's just because I'm not good enough for anyone, no one. I know I'm too young but whatever, I can't help it. The want, the need for someone. The loneliness eats me.

I feel like crying. I'm not pretty, I'm not cool enough, I don't have nice anything. Not hair, not grades, not personality. I know that Blah blah blah , teenagers look down on themselves. Whatever, I'll get past this stage soon. I'm getting mixed feelings about everyone, no whole feelings. I feel like sleeping away the world. Sleep and never wake up, I don't want to face life. Just hide under my duvet and drift away to unconsciousness. But I know that I have to get through life, things aren't always easy.

I couldn't get my thoughts into words. I'll leave it here, see you .